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i need to discuss something. theres a guy in my life who is a friend. but... i feel like hes a possessive bf stalker type and i dont know if he REALLY is or if its in my head! he says it cuz he cares and he means nothing but the best which is why he does things for me and is nice to me but i cant tell if its manipulation or obsession or "normalcy" i am so used to being treated like shit, or being used, or abused, or controlled, and manipulated that I cant even recognize goodness. I like to fight and be dysfunctional and have passionate love and kissing form the depths of my soul. this guy is not like that at all. it bothers me when he gives me things. i dont feel the same way! it freaks me out when he drives by my house and knows if im home or not. i needed a computer so he gives me one. youre not my boyfriend! hes trying to be isnt he? he acts like a boyfriend but hes only my friend. means he likes me! SO uncomfortable.
My issue though is that i repel niceness and goodness and welcome and covet dysfunction. clearly we know this is form my awful childhood but I dont know how to get past it. And I am terrified this stalker will be obsessive and controlling. its like i dont have clear vision to tell!
What do I do????
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I would be very wary to accept large gifts from a man - especially one you are not dating. And I don't think it is normal for him to drive by to see if you are home. If you are uncomfortable with anything he is doing, tell him that. If he is a nice guy and not some creep then he will back off and understand. If he doesn't back off or worse becomes more uncomfortable, then you have a bad dude on your hands and I would suggest staying far away from him. I hope he comes with good intentions.
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