im on a mission

Sorry most of my blogs are depressing. But I have something better to talk about. It took me 15 years to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I thought I wanted to be a dancer, an artist, a hair dresser, a teacher, an aesthetician, massage therapist, make up artist... I am all those things actually. I've done and still do all of those things, just not as a profession. Working in finance has made me see a lot of things. Good and bad. I see how these men (and women) are salesmen and want to be rich. They are very humbled in this economy. Some are thankful for a job, others miserable. They are struggling to keep up their lifestyles. Sometimes I get annoyed at them, other times I feel bad when they don't make any commission for a month and they're stressed trying to provide for their families. But all in all, I HATE my job. I thought maybe I could do something exciting in the industry but no way. The only thing I get to do that I like is help my favorite broker build his business. By marketing ideas and projects. I really like him so I like helping him. I not only get to change up my routine, but I feel satisfied when I know I'm helping him, and the best part is using my creativity to come up with new ideas! Being able to create and brainstorm makes me feel accomplished, useful, talented, and important!

So I decided I am going to make a career of helping people grow their businesses. So I started brainstorming how I can start doing this.

The plan: I own my OWN business

First step: learn how to do it and master it

Next step: meet people, make connections

I think I should start by writing my ideas and writing out a plan.

I WILL do these things and I WILL fulfill my dreams. I will go to france and I will fulfill my desires. Thank god I finally figured out what I want to do. I'll blog about what I do, since its the only interesting thing going on right now.

Thanks for reading! I can't comment on my own blog or other blogs since I don't have a computer but thank you!

why i cant sleep

These are the thoughts that go through my mind at 4am...

So the way I figure, the stocl market was booming in the twenties, got out of control, and crashed. How long did it take until the market recovered? Not until the 1980's. Sixty years later. So I figure by the time I'm in my eighties, the economy will be booming again! So when its going to be a great time to be alive, I'll be half dead! My life sucks.

I wanna know what I did in my past lives. Did ALL my lives suck this much???