porn, NBA and comedian, Brittney, lesbians, born-agains... Lets talk about it.

Here is whats up with me. Let's talk about it.

I just watched like 4 hours of porn. Usually i'd feel kind of dirty but this time I didn't. I guess I was really horny? I made myself cum over and over. I'm a little sick in the head thats for sure. Heres the sickest part.  I can remember being a kid and fantasizing about an old man sitting on a chair with a whip as I was on all fours on the floor and he was dominating me and making me obey. I was like TEN! I remember always having the fantasy of him telling me sit down and rub my clit and maake me cum while he watched. This got me wet. Now if I hear these stories of sex sleaves for real, I get SO upset and sickk to my stomach, yet the porn I go to is all that. Makes me seriously believe I was a sex slave in a past life. Why else would I have a fantasy of that as a kid and even know what it was? I remember being 13 maybe, and thinking to myself, I want to take that hair clip and clip my pussy. I clipped my lips, my pussy, my tits.... and I loved it! SICK.

I absolutely love Brittney Spear's new song. I love every song of hers that comes out. Some people think she should retire. I dont think so! She gets better with each album!

I got hit on by an ex NBA player yesterday at work.  He is a client.  I had NO clue who he was. I dont watch sports. He was 6'9"!!! I am 5"3".  He's telling me he likes short girls my height. I was flattered and scared at the same time! The MM over on my other blog is only 5"3". It doesnt bother me for the most part. But the guy I just met is 6"1" and I only come up to his chest. Tall is sexy. But 6'9"? I would never be able to defend myself from him if I had to. But if he was good to me, I'd always feel safe. But imagine the size of his dick? His hands are like 3/4 the size of a basketball? yikes! Then I went to see a comedian up in connecticut last ngiht who i think is really sexy. 6"4". In heels, I come up to his chest. But I'd date him if he liked me.  He is my favorite comedian and he was SO NICE. offered me and my guy friend to stay in his suite! I'm disappointed we didnt but quite frankly i didnt want to share a bed on a pull out couch with him. I would have wanted to sleep with the comedian!!!! NBA guy? In heels I come up to his stomach! Seriously? Why would you like the short girl and not the poor girls who are taller than all the men and give them a chance to be with someone their height? These tall men are just turning me ON!
I joined plenty of fish to find a girl to date. I have no real friends and I am hoping to make friends... with benefits if I am lucky. It made me feel so good about myself to hear how many women think I am beautiful. I love a womans body. I love to lick their bodies all over and play with htier nipples. I want to make a girl cum all over my fingers and lick it off. I also love to dominate and be dominated. With men or women. I want to pull a girls hair and make her submit to me as I tease her and bite her neck and lick her. There are a couple girls who want to meet me. This should be interesting.

I need new friends though. I cant stand my so-called friends. They are judgmental born-agains. They sleep around yet jusge someone who is gay. Go fuck yourselves bitches. Last time I saw them they lectured me on the married guy and pointed out all my faults. Telling me I am an emotional roller coaster ride and how I feel so low of myself to date a married guy. Even if this is all true which it is, you dont tell me that! If you were a best friend and wanted to talk to me about it ok. But as someone I havent talked to or seen in months? Who asked you? And btw they are both single, pushy, demanding, spoiled, unattractive bitches. good luck.

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